* I bet y'all are in festive Thanksgiving mode. I hope each of you had a grateful day with family and friends. I'm sorry I have to bring you some eventful (and not in a good way) news.
* The contrasted CT scan on the 26th was a breeze. However, the after-effects were a nightmare.
* My brother Vince (yes, the one who watched me do a somersault down the stairs when I was eight) and his pup arrived from western North Carolina. Carl and I were happy to see them.
* I had been told to drink plenty of water after my scan to flush out the iodine which was infused into my body.
* It was a gorgeous fall day and we sat outside while I drank water like it was going out of style.
* Suddenly, I was seeing split images of Carl's and Vince's faces. I tried to tell them a story about my cousin, but instead of following my words, Carl asked me to raise my arms above my head and smile. They were convinced I was having a stroke or an allergic reaction to the contrast.
* My head pounded. The pressure was extreme. Yep, it was the worst headache of my life.
* Most allergic reactions from iodine don't wait two hours to attack, but 1 in 85,000 do. I'm one in 85,000.
* The next thing I knew, I was in the Emergency Room at Duke Medical Center.
* The triage nurses agreed with the unprofessional diagnosis of my husband--it was either a stroke or an allergic reaction.
* They wheeled me into the CT scan room and administered the CT scan without using any contrast.
* They discovered I had an aneurysm. (From the Mayo Clinic: An aneurysm is a bulge or ballooning in the wall of a blood vessel. An aneurysm can break open. This is called a rupture. A ruptured aneurysm causes bleeding inside the body. It often leads to death. Some aneurysms cause no symptoms. You might not know you have an aneurysm even if it is large.)
* Since there was no blood leakage, they ruled out stroke.
* I was wheeled into a room with the neurosurgeon and the attending physician.
* The aneurysm brought so much confusion. I kept my eyes closed nearly the whole time and my head down.
* They discussed the options with my husband, saying this might require immediate surgery.
* For some reason, it seemed this all boiled down to whether or not I had shortness of breath. At one point I must have told someone I had shortness of breath. I have no recollection.
* When the attending decided I did not have shortness of breath, I was given masses of intravenous drugs to counteract the allergic reaction.
* Finally, the head pounding subsided; I was able to open my eyes and look at the doctors.
* An additional scan was needed to determine the severity of the aneurysm.
* By this time it was 9 PM. We'd been there since 6 PM.
* The neurosurgen said I was next up for an MRI, and she would formulate a plan. She told Carl and my brother that emergency neurosurgery was most likely off the table, but she needed to see the scan results to be sure.
* I was told I couldn't have anything to eat or drink because I might have to go into surgery.
* The hours passed; Carl sent my brother home to our house. Carl and I waited four hours for my turn in line.
* At last, the MRI was done! The attending said we could go home, but not without a slight fight. One doctor said I had to stay overnight; another told me I could go home after the scan. Carl and I yearned for our bed!
* We were told the neurosurgeon's office would call Monday for a treatment plan for the aneurysm and that we could salvage what was left of Thanksgiving day.
* Turn back the clock to 3:39 PM . . . . . Prior to the allergic reaction and the aneruymsn, thirty minutes after we got home, my oncologist had called to say the CT (the CT that used contrast which I now know I am allergic to) results showed signs of metastatic cancer.
* I listened as she talked, talking notes on paper we use for our grocery lists. There were nine papers of scribbling.
* The oncologist said she'd schedule a PET scan and another biopsy in the next two weeks.
* I'd thought I wouldn't have any CT updates until Monday, so was surprised to hear so soon.
* After I was wheeled out of the ER and secured into our Jeep, Carl and I were home by 3:15 AM. We got three hours of sleep, and had that beautiful turkey ready for the Thanksgiving table that afternoon.
* What a treat to be with family! What a gift to be alive!
* My neck muscles and upper chest muscles are sore. My neck feels like someone is squeezing it. Yet, I feel an improvement from when I first got home two days ago.
* Lesson made very clear----We are all just one breath away from death.
* I ask God to let me clean out my bedroom closet first. No one should have to suffer through it, but me. After all, it's my mess.
***Before posting this, I've asked Carl to make sure everything I've written is clear and correct. Sadly, there are approximately 7 hours of my life where I remember nothing.*** P.S. If this has any misspellings, I'm sure you'll give me a break.***
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Saturday, November 29, 2025
My Cancer in Bullet Points #7 (Aneurysm and Allergic Reaction)
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Monday, December 10, 2007
Thanksgiving....a little late
Sometimes writers log onto
Google and type in their
names just to see what's
out there.... Usually
we do this on days when
we wonder if anyone cares
about us... (You know
our egos are frail.)
Here is something I found
that I wrote when I was
the editor of Sascha's
LARGO.
THANKSGIVING IS FOR
THE BEREAVED AND BROKEN
By Alice J. Wisler
Revised from LARGO, Winter 2001
I have a hard time believing it is the
season of holidays again. While this
year should be easier since it will be
our fifth Thanksgiving, Christmas
and New Years without Daniel, I still
feel myself putting on an extra shield
of courage.
In the cool afternoon air I am reminded
of my first Thanksgiving
since Daniel’s death. On that day I
wrote a poem; it wasn’t very good
but it did express what I had learned
from reflecting on the origins of this
national American holiday.
For the first time I thought that the
initial Thanksgiving among the settlers
and the Indians couldn’t have
been that glamorous. Why not? For
one, there had been many losses.
Around those tables were certainly
fathers and mothers who had had to
bury children. While thankful for
much, these parents held heavy
hearts too.
Continuing to reflect this way helps
me realize Thanksgiving is also a
holiday with reality. It is not a
Norman Rockwell painting. While we
like the warmth this artist has
created in his capturing of a happy
Thanksgiving table, we know that in
most families everyone is not present.
Family members are gone from us
and at times all we can notice are the
silent empty chairs. How can we have
Thanksgiving when we are lacking?
This holiday does not have the be-
reaved in mind at all, we conclude.
But, in time, we are able to reflect on
the presence our loved children held
in our lives instead of only focusing
on their absences. They lived and we
are the more blessed because of their
lives – so vibrant and so loving. We
become more aware of just how
much they impacted our lives then –
and even now.
Light a candle this Thanksgiving for
those we miss. Recall how blessed we
were to have them, even for a short
while.
And remember that the origin of
Thanksgiving does not stem from the
situations of cheery and perfectly
intact families. There had been many
deaths during the difficult trek to
this land from England and Europe
and once the settlers arrived, more
deaths due to illness occurred. The
Native Americans experienced heart
breaking losses as well. Even so,
these men and women found reasons
to be thankful. So, although our
sorrow is great, we can be appreciative
for the memories we hold in our
hearts.
Thanksgiving is a holiday
which includes each of us – bereaved
and broken.
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