Am I Okay, God?
I stole eye mascara from CVS one time.
I lied to my mother and didn’t go to the Bible study—I went to a bar instead.
I cheated on my math test—I didn’t mean to. I wanted to check the formula for quadratics on my iPhone.
I gossiped about my best friend because I wanted her boyfriend to notice me.
I lost my temper at JC Penneys because the sale was supposed to run through today and it ended yesterday.
I was speeding on I-75 and almost caused an accident.
I checked out that website on my computer—now I feel guilty for enjoying it.
I don’t want to go to church—I want to sleep in.
If I had more time, I would read my Bible.
You don’t want to talk to me, do you, God?
Am I okay, God?
I fail you every day. I know you died for me, but I will never be good enough. If you ONLY knew me. You don’t know how bad I am. You don’t know the real me. If you did, you wouldn’t like me. I want to change, God. I really do. But I feel like I have already blown it.
“Was the man possessed by demons? Were there underlings roaming the earth looking for an unfortunate victim? The anguished soul stood still for the first time in front of the fisherman, captivated by the king’s eyes.
From off the lake, a breeze stirred, slowly at first and then gaining momentum. Like onion skin, vaporous creatures peeled from the madman, coming out of his brain. The swirling wind tore at the naked and exposed shape shifters. The black, formless creatures were like bats without bodies.
The dark beings smelled rancid and the awful odor settled over everything. The demons cowered submissively before the king. The creatures hissed and screeched and made fools of themselves. The fearful pig herders withdrew a safe distance.
The king asked, “What is your name?”
“My name is Legion,” one of the demons replied, “for we are many.”
The king’s power and authority over the spirits was omnipotent. The underlings knew him. They knew the king. The muscles in my shoulders tensed and my legs twitched. Much-Afraid hid her face under my arm.
The demons begged, “Please, do not send us out of the area.” They pointed to the pigs. “Send us among the pigs. Allow us to go into them.”
At the king’s command, they fled from the man and entered the herd. Their formless bodies slid inside the pigs. I shuddered. The pigs shook violently. The herd, numbering in the thousands, stampeded down the steep bank and headed straight into the lake.
The herdsmen watched their valuable livestock disappear and shouted accusations at the king. “By whose authority did you drown our herd?” They flailed their arms at the fishermen and the shepherds traipsed back up the field resolute for answers. “Who is this man that sends pigs into the lake? By what authority does he do such things?” They continued to argue among themselves.
At first, Cherios, Lowly, Much-Afraid and I were too stunned to speak. Cherios spoke first. “Lowly, that is the king, the king of the garden. He’s here. The king is here among us.’”
But Am I Okay, God?
The only beings God hates are demons—He cast them into pigs (as told in the Bible) and drowned them in the sea—the sea of unbelief. Don’t listen to the lies of Satan and his minions. You are loved more than you will ever know. God loves you more than your parents do, or your boyfriend, brother, sister, or anyone you “meet” on the internet.
John 3:16 says: “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
There is nothing you can do or say that will ever make God not love you. He wants you to be set free—free to become the person He created you to be.
The worst thing you can do is think you are not okay. Proverbs 23:7 says: As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.” You are more than okay. You were bought with a price—Jesus Christ died for YOU.
Take a moment and say to yourself, I am a child of God. Allow Jesus Christ, the King, into your heart—and He will do a miracle, a healing, even an exorcism. Start living like you belong to the King and let this day be the first day of the rest of your life.
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Lorilyn Roberts is a Christian author who writes children's picture books, adult nonfiction, memoirs, and a young adult Christian fantasy series, Seventh Dimension. The first in the series, The Door, was just published (October 2012).
Lorilyn graduated Magna Cum Laude from the University of Alabama, which included international study in Israel and England. She received her Masters in Creative Writing from Perelandra College and is a graduate of the Institute of Children's Literature.